i can't stop smiling

it's really going to happen this time. the last two times i thought the same thing until it turned out to be a false start, twice, but this time, i know that on monday

they will go after my heart.

i can't stop smiling.

it is really going to finally happen! bless my heart (if i may be so bold).

for so many months i've paid attention to the way my heart beats, monitored meds, learned about biofeedback and acupuncture, contacted long lost friends and loves, finished what i could, and then it all came to a screeching halt.

oops! sorry, equipment problem! sorry! let's do it three months from now.

and three months later this unpredictable heart has lived up to it's reputation and presented conversations i never dreamed of having, and connective situations that could only have come from god.

karma is good.

there is a woodfire burning in the backyard, a huge vase of mike's fragrant pink roses in front of me, and a small taste of red wine beside me. oh, and a basset hound.

and mike.

and to you,

thank you for the peace you are sending. it is working. and like i said

i can't stop smiling.